Well, 13 weeks in and as dramatic as it sounds I am ready to draw out my savings, get a plane ticket to somewhere remote and hide out there until I feel normal again.
No seriously, it isn’t all that bad. The amount I used to moan/cry about my skin before going on the roaccutane treatment I should be happy. The only physical effects I have noticed throughout has been dry lips and also a sore and occasionally bloody nose. But aside from that my skin is almost perfectly clear, the only thing noticeable when I’m not wearing make up is a few slight scars and an uneven skintone in places which is such an amazing relief after suffering with such painful acne.
So why am I not happy? I’m blaming it on the treatment. I’ve lost quite a bit of weight due to loss of appetite and am still taking 60mg which 13 weeks in seems to be taking an effect on my mental state. I find myself picking away at my insecurities when I have too much time on my own, I’m convinced my boyfriend is getting bored of me, he doesn’t hug me one time and for the rest of the day I beat myself up thinking “how have I let my insecurities ruin my relationship”, a lot of the time I feel ugly and I feel like my family feel sorry for me because I have quite clearly gone insane.
These extreme feelings won’t happen to most, admittedly I’m not the most secure person but it seems these tablets find your weakest points and exercise them constantly.
I’m back at the dermotologist this week and I’m hoping they tell me I’m nearly finished, unfortunately I have to see the nurse again who seems to take her time analysing my every pore and telling me I should wear sunglasses outside even in the winter months ( there’s not even a hint of sunshine where I live but I do have to humour the lady) but I’m hoping they bring down my doseage slightly so my body can maybe start to feel normal again.
So, I’ll let you know how I get on. If you’ve had any similar feelings to mine ( and I hope none of you haven’t!) please comment below and I’ll try and give you some tips as to how I’ve dealt with some of the side effects. Thanks! F x
Tags: Week 13
Hiya
Just read your post there, sounds as though your having the same as me and we are roughly on it the same amount of time im currently going into week 13. I am feeling really down, really agitated cannot sleep at all where i have never had any probs sleeping at all so im exhausted. i have a really sore back where i sit for more than 5 mins its difficult to get up.
I was at work today for about 2 hours and had to leave, cannot stand being around ppl just now and no concentration whatsoever. Dunno if its at this stage all the effects are heightened somewhat.
As i feel i cannot even do my job just now i have made an appointment for my GP later today however gonna call the Derm to see what they say first.
Will post how i get on.
Elaine
- layney on January 7, 2013 at 12:28 pm
I’m so sorry you feel that way, but if it makes you feel any better I was in exactly the same place concerning work. I felt so trapped when I was there and made any excuse to attempt to leave. But what you have to try and remember is that it’s all just in your head; it’s the tablets making you feel like this and nothing else. I think the tablets just weaken your confidence and make everything seem a lot worse than what it is.
Sleep wise I didn’t have any problems with it aside from never wanting to get out of bed which is probably worse haha. I think it’s good that you’ve made an appointment to see your derm/gp as they might recommend you a lower dosage like they have done with me this weekend and already I feel a lot more relaxed. Hang in there and let me know how you get on! F xx
- callmefranks on January 7, 2013 at 12:41 pm
Hi
Can i ask was it your GP that advised to lower the dose or the Derm?
Unsure as to call the Hosp and see if they give you a phone appnt incase i go along to docs and they just tell me to contact hosp?
Elaine.
- layney on January 7, 2013 at 12:46 pm
It’s your demotologist who can alter your doseage so it’s probably easier going straight to them as they’re the ones monitoring your progress with the drug! F xx
- callmefranks on January 7, 2013 at 4:30 pm