That is how I feel on roaccutane! In more ways than one. But mostly because I find it difficult having to justify why I’m not drinking in social situations. I’ve told my friend’ and thats all fine because they understand and are supportive. Tonight though, I was out for a friend’s birthday with some new people that I didn’t know and was kind of fed up with having to answer to constant peer pressure to drink and people asking me why I wasn’t. I don’t exactly feel the need to lie about being on R but on the other hand don’t feel the need to tell every person I meet. So it lead to a few awkward conversations. Generally I tried to summarise: “I’m taking some medication at the moment and it’s not good to mix it with alcohol” to which I get an odd look as if I’ve got some kind of weird disease and they awkwardly stop talking. And basically I just feel like a bit of a bore. When everyone else is having cocktails and wine and shots and I’m ordering my 5th lemonade of the night it doesn’t exactly make me feel like party central. I know I’m just having a big moan here! I have had the odd glass here or there but I’m talking like one small drink every few weeks. And in general I feel so much healthier for it. But sometimes it does make me feel like a bit of an odd one out!
I haven’t posted for a while. But theres not much to say… I’m on week 10 now, on 40mg and not much has changed. My skin has been great. Only got one spot at the moment! It feels really clear, I’m happy with it. Friends have commented on how good it looks which makes me feel like its all worth it! Side effects have been OK. Although I do have very dry hands at the moment, especially with the cold weather. My skin seems weirdly sensitive, I scratched my neck the other day and have been left with a dark red mark almost like a bruise! I haven’t noticed any low mood in particular but I have at times felt a bit… ‘flat’… that’s the only way I can describe it really. Not sad or angry or depressed, just not quite my usual chirpy self. I’m not reading too much into it though. Everyone has times like that! And it’s not stopping me from doing anything. I’ve got lots going on at work and have a busy social life too so I think I’ve got a lot of good things to keep me going. I’m more than half way now I really can’t wait to finish!
Hope everyone is coping well xxx