That is how I feel on roaccutane! In more ways than one. But mostly because I find it difficult having to justify why I’m not drinking in social situations. I’ve told my friend’ and thats all fine because they understand and are supportive. Tonight though, I was out for a friend’s birthday with some new people that I didn’t know and was kind of fed up with having to answer to constant peer pressure to drink and people asking me why I wasn’t. I don’t exactly feel the need to lie about being on R but on the other hand don’t feel the need to tell every person I meet. So it lead to a few awkward conversations. Generally I tried to summarise: “I’m taking some medication at the moment and it’s not good to mix it with alcohol” to which I get an odd look as if I’ve got some kind of weird disease and they awkwardly stop talking. And basically I just feel like a bit of a bore. When everyone else is having cocktails and wine and shots and I’m ordering my 5th lemonade of the night it doesn’t exactly make me feel like party central. I know I’m just having a big moan here! I have had the odd glass here or there but I’m talking like one small drink every few weeks. And in general I feel so much healthier for it. But sometimes it does make me feel like a bit of an odd one out!
I haven’t posted for a while. But theres not much to say… I’m on week 10 now, on 40mg and not much has changed. My skin has been great. Only got one spot at the moment! It feels really clear, I’m happy with it. Friends have commented on how good it looks which makes me feel like its all worth it! Side effects have been OK. Although I do have very dry hands at the moment, especially with the cold weather. My skin seems weirdly sensitive, I scratched my neck the other day and have been left with a dark red mark almost like a bruise! I haven’t noticed any low mood in particular but I have at times felt a bit… ‘flat’… that’s the only way I can describe it really. Not sad or angry or depressed, just not quite my usual chirpy self. I’m not reading too much into it though. Everyone has times like that! And it’s not stopping me from doing anything. I’ve got lots going on at work and have a busy social life too so I think I’ve got a lot of good things to keep me going. I’m more than half way now 
I really can’t wait to finish!
Hope everyone is coping well xxx
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You know a few years ago i would not disclose my details about my skin as i guess i felt i was embarrased that i had to take medication for it. Then over the years i learned that this problem was out of my control and began accepting it and working hard to fix it. (Sill doesnt help the insecurity though)
Over the years i have missed so many events and social outings so the fact that you are even attending them is a great thing. Dont feel awkward in the situations saying why you are not drinking as in a few months you will be able to enjoy your alcohol again.
Im only my 10th day and so far the end seems an eternity away! My skin has broke out like never before. Places i never had spots has just went crazy with boils and whiteheads! its disgusting and i will no doubt need to miss a good few events before im finished. I just hope that by time its over i can look back and be very happy that i fixed my problem!
- marky84 on February 3, 2013 at 7:20 pm
Hi Cookie,
To be 24 again (sigh)!! The best age to be, old enough to know better but still old enough to have fun and get away with short dresses:-)
I understand what you mean about not telling people you are on R on a night out, especially people who you don’t see very often and don’t want to get into the ins and outs of it all, especially on a night out. Some people I have told have said things like ‘ why don’t you try tea tree oil’ or have you thought about trying cutting out chocolate and using oil of ulay face wash…. you know the comments I mean.
An idea is maybe non-alcoholic cocktails or when you have your lemonade just don’t correct people when they assume there is a vodka in there. Not sure what your tipple is but wine and soda or shandy could be an idea. If you are a lightweight like me, I’m quite squiffy after two half lagers so nights out aren’t a problem:-)
Glad to hear that your skin is looking fab and I know what you mean about feeling ‘flat’, I feel a bit like that. Just can’t wait until the 12th March then it will be done and dusted.
Speak soon x
- Vanessa on February 4, 2013 at 9:20 am
I can completely sympathise — I felt the same (both in terms of moods and going out!). Just to say — it’s really worth sticking with, and having the slightly awkward few months for the benefits afterwards from my view.
Hope this helps even a tiny bit.
- R S on February 9, 2013 at 9:44 am
Thanks for the support guys! I know the comments you mean Vanessa – very frustrating! It’s usually followed up with a comment like: “but your skin is fine anyway.”!! I’m really just counting down now, it’s not long to go and hopefully the benefits of clear skin will out weight these awkward few months! xx
- cookie9 on February 12, 2013 at 9:18 am